Hello! My name is Samantha Fernandes; I am 24 years old and
was born and raised in Brockton, MA. I currently
live in Brockton with both of my parents and I am the second child of three
girls. My family is a mish-mash of Cape Verdean, English, Irish, and Welsh. My
mother’s side of the family has been in Massachusetts for generations. Her
father’s, my grandfather’s, family can be traced back to the settling of
Scituate, MA in 1636. My father and his family immigrated to America; from the
island of Fogo, in the Cape Verde islands; in 1967. I and my sisters are first
generation citizens on his side of the family.
professional photo of me, b-day present from my sister
My main interests include reading, writing, painting, and organizing
strangely enough. The organizing is only because I seem to be always doing it
in one fashion or another. I seem to always be picking things up and I can’t
just put things anywhere so when I put things where they belong I notice
something else that needs to go where it belongs and it just continues on like
that until I get tired or something else comes up. I read just about anything that is put in
front of me. This usually gets me into trouble as I tend to zone everyone out
when I am reading. Most of my writing is short blurbs of words that can range
from any genre and can take different literary forms. Most of these blurbs get
turned into short stories that sit and collect until I find a way to put them
together. I have plans to get some of my collections published when I have real
time to pursue it. What I mean by real time is when I’m not busy studying, organizing or painting, which takes a lot time if I lose track time, which I do often. Painting is sort of my let loose time. While writing hypes me up painting, abstract being my preferred medium, relaxes me and clears my head from everything that rumbles through it.
Untitled painting i did last year
My friends would describe me as being a bit of an air head. Whenever
I am thinking about something I tend to zone out with my eyes open. This makes
people uncomfortable as I stare straight through people when this happens. Zoning
out in the middle of something is a common occurrence, especially when I am writing.
I have literally stopped mid stroke of writing because a though has come
through my head and I just sit there staring into space as my thoughts run
rampant. My friends caught me like this once and laughed because I was writing with
a Sharpy marker and left it on the page and there was a black circle the size
of a quarter on the page by the time I zoned back in, they thought it was
hilarious. They would also describe me as being very quiet. I usual don’t talk
when I am in a crowd of people or around people I don’t know well. I usually
just observe everything around me until someone asks me something specifically I
don’t talk at all. This also leads to me zoning out much to the amusement of my
friends and puzzlement to anyone who doesn’t know me well. My friends would
also say I’m the one who listen the best. I’m usually the first people call
with a problem that needs another perspective. They learned however that
getting advice on how to solve the problem however is someone else’s job. I give
advice that is well meant but usually snow balls the problem worse. Listening I can do, helping is a 50/50 shot in
the dark.
Affirmation # 100
I am deeply fulfilled with who I am
I have
Always been a person
Made to
Daydream,
Ever wandering in my mind
Everything that could be
Possible or not
Leaping through my mind.
Yearning for nothing more,
From wanting nothing more
Unwilling to compromise
Living not for the moment but
For the everyday.
I give all of myself while never
Leaving life to chance and
Leaving nothing to waste
Every day I see
Deeper into myself
With no obstructions from
negativity
I push myself forward,
Toward bettering myself.
However hard I feel the
World
Has become
Or how
I am told to quit,
All that will do is make
My victory in life the better.
