Grace Undefined

I have always had very simple plans for my future. Find a job that I at least enjoy doing if not in love with was always first in my mind. Being a Pharmacy technician has been that job so far. I enjoy the work and the people. While there are bad days the good days more than make up for it. I have always seen myself living in my parents’ house and I plan to buy it from them when the time comes. I have also seen myself having children in this house just not always having a significant other in that house. Children have always been in my future plans. I never develop concrete ideas for my future. More like vague ideas of where I want to go and what I want to take with me. I have never planned to get a job where I make thousands of dollars a week. Just keeping that everything is paid for and maybe a little extra for a yearly vacation is more than adequate. That Vacation may not be in the Bahamas every year but that is perfectly okay.

Something that would twist my plans for my future would be if I met someone who could be “the One”. Every person talks about meeting that one person who completes them, that one person that lights up their world. I can honestly say that if I did meet someone who could do all of that for me I would be the most shocked person around. I have never put thought into what my other half would even be like. To meet that person should fill me with unimagined joy as far as I can tell. But that is only from what other people have told me about when they met their other half.

I have never thought of myself who can give so much of myself to someone else intimately like I feel would be necessary for me to get married or be in a permanent relationship. I couldn't even begin to plan what my life would be with someone who would mean so much to me in it. I see sharing my life with someone on such an intimate level like winning the lottery. Some people pray for it, others are convinced that one day it will happen while others view it as something that is never going to happen. While most people say everything falls into place once that person enters your life I see that I would have to change everything in my plans to some degree. Not because I had to, but because I would want to. I would want to make that person happy as I am sure they would want me to be happy. While I can see myself making the changes I would not be sure how much of it would be changes in my plans or in me.

I have accepted

Chance and change

And pushing of myself

To my limitation

I have

Accepted that when

I am given

Opportunity

It is alright

To take it

It is not selfish

Its acceptance

Things can occur and being

Given

Unselfishly

Are worth more

Than what I take

More than

what I want for

My own

That what I

Am given

But do not deserve

I am grateful for

I am accepting of

The forces that give it to me

I am thankful

For my family

Those who I have

Chosen and those

Who have chosen me

I am greatful